“This is too easy.”
My life is rough, I’ll admit it. But it feels too easy for me at the moment. If that makes any sense whatsoever.
I’m 22. I should be “an adult,” out living my own life with a career and a place of my own. Maybe struggling to make ends meet. Instead I’m living with my parents. My hardships are running errands when I don’t want to, getting frustrated with my parents when they’re eating but I’m fighting off a headache and don’t know what to eat because they apparently decided to fend for themselves. And my health. That’s a huge one. But I don’t want this to be the rest of my life. I want to be a big girl.
I had my first cardiac rehab session today and all I could say while doing the nustep (which is essentially a seated elliptical) was, “This is just too easy…” I feel like I’m not being challenged, and it’s killing me. I want to do a workout that makes me feel weak afterward because then I know I was pushing myself.
Honestly, I just want to be “normal,” not worried about if I’m making things too hard on myself by trying to be.