Another Day, Another Seemingly Useless Appointment…
I don’t understand how my doctors aren’t more concerned with figuring out how to get this under control. To me, it’s top priority.
I don’t want to keep having heart rates as high as 160 just from hanging out in a vertical position. Seriously. 160 is FINE for exercising but just standing? Not at all awesome. I want to be able to do things with my life and in order to do that I need to get things under control.
Nothing is changing with my treatment, though. “Just keep up with salty fluids and your cardiac rehab.”
“Okay, but what about my beta blocker? Why doesn’t it seem to be working yet?”
“If it’s causing nightmares you could consider taking it during the day instead but otherwise I don’t think it matters..”
WHY can I not just get my body to work itself out and why does this not bother my doctors that I’m basically not living a full life as much as it bothers me? It’s at the point where I’m almost annoyed hearing about other people’s symptoms that I ordinarily just blow off in myself and finding out their heart rates AFTER EXERCISE (non-recumbent at that!) are lower than mine just standing. That makes me a terrible person, I don’t like it – but it’s true. I’m annoyed. I cope. You can too. *grumble grumble*